Tuesday, September 18, 2018

★We're Moving★

Where should I begin? I know it has been some time since the last time I blogged. The last time was in July.

I have done a few live streams here and there, but somehow I wasn't able to keep them consistent since my job started. I guess it took me longer to adjust to this new job than planned. A lot has happened since then.

The first is that Brandon and I are moving to another apartment. A better one. I'll be doing an apartment tour soon after everything is put together. I'm thinking maybe the first week of October. The apartment is really nice. It's a two bedroom two bath apartment with a private entry way!  I'm so thankful that we are able to afford this.  We will also have better internet! I'm so excited to have better internet.

Why the sudden move? Originally, we were going to hold out until we could get a house, but we had some visitors.

About 4am in the morning on a Friday, we had the police department banging at our door. Apparently, they were looking for someone that just so happened to have the same last name as me. After getting them to leave the first time, I try to navigate in my dark apartment with my flashlight on my phone and they found that to be suspicious so they came up and decided to search the apartment.We let them in, but I could tell when they saw just me, they realized that they had the wrong place. 

I did happen to see though that a "Smith" that wasn't mine pop up on our wifi listings so that may be the person they were looking for. Either way, we were NOT happy at all. Also, this apartment had just became too crowded for two people. We decided to set off to look for another apartment. Luckily, we found our new home on the second try. The first one we looked at was similar but it just lacked....a lot. There was no home vibe for me. We then toured our second place, and being encouraged to decorate, and do whatever made us happy. Also, the amenities were really nice.

However, it's smaller things that I am thankful about in this new place. The first one being the washer and dryer unit IN the apartment. No more going beyond "quiet time" hours to do laundry, and no walking to a second building to do our laundry. We also have a dishwasher which will take less stress on us having to hand wash our dishes. An area for a kitchen table for us to sit down and eat dinner, and a comfy living room for us to spend time together. For me, it's having an office to work in. I'm so excited to be able to have this personal space of mine. Brandon was so nice to give it to me, and I told him I'll keep all my clothes and such in it, so he could have the master bedroom closet.

So I'll have my own little space which makes me super happy! Also, our kitchen is big enough to make healthy wholesome food! I ordered a new cook book that should arrive when we're there.  I also have have a space where I can possibly do more vlogs!

Other than that, the new job is going great. Expect more after I move!

Monday, July 16, 2018

★I met Dan Reynolds to talk about Loveloud before I went to see Panic! At The Disco★

So, it has been quite an eventful past week.  I honestly did not expect to meet Dan Reynolds face to face, and honestly, I felt bad because I was really nervous keeping eye contact.  I remember, I had just finished watching his HBO documentary and decided to support Loveloud and bought a shirt since I could in no way be able to see him in Salt Lake city during the festival. I went to work, and happen to to see this event pop up on my instagram that was being hosted by AT&T and at first I was like "I'm not going to win this" but something kept nagging me.

So I entered. I got my notification a day or two before hand. It then hit me that I had to drive to Indiana the next day.  I shrugged, and said it be too much of an opportunity to miss. So, my friend and I went to the event. We get there, and met some pretty cool people. We also got told that 10 people would be able to meet and take a photo with Dan Reynolds. Again, I thought that my luck had stopped there but I tried anyways. I ended up being the 8th called, and I was in disbelief to the point I was shaking.  

Needless to say, I blubbered like a baby because well, his band honestly has helped me a lot. Especially with coping with healing from my Mother's death, my father kicking me out, and managing to get through school. I felt bad because it looked like that was going to make him cry but then quickly said that I fortunately had a safe place to fall. It felt great to be able to thank one of my artist for all that they have done, because music is a big part of my life. 

However, let's talk about what the event is really about, and I will link down the website(s) below so if anyone is interested, they can volunteer.  

In short, Dan found flaws in the way the Mormon community was ran. Please hear me out before you get angry and type hateful comments. 

The suicide rate in LGTBQ+ community is astronomically high among teens, or people in general, so I want to help bring awareness to these organizations causes.  

During the Q&A sessions, I did want to bring up conversion therapy, but thought best that another question be asked. However, due to time restraints, I could not ask my question and I was short so I couldn't.  So, Everyone on the panel suggests that if you are interested in becoming an ally, just ask questions, and talk to people. Please donate, volunteer, ask questions, and don't be afraid to stand up against hate. 

Here are the links to Loveloud and the Trevor Project: 

My friend Sarah and I.  (I look blah)

The next day I went to Panic! At The Disco in Indianapolis. I was needless to say super tired, but I had been able to rest the following day after the concert and slept in at my friend's house. After that, I decided to stay into town and spend time with my Mother's family. 

It was so amazing to see my aunt and uncles again, and to learn about my Mom's family more. I had missed them so much, and I could tell that they had missed me.  

However, I want to get serious for a moment, and I'm not going into too much details. 

I have always wondered why things had happened the way they did, and I will just say that I got my answers, and everything makes so much more sense. If you have seen my instagram, you would know that I had decided to partially cut ties with my father, however, I feel that there was much more that I did not know because I was so young, and my Mom being my Mom, did not tell me these things that have occurred between them two, but I am just going to leave it at that.  

Please, if you are in an abusive relationship, get help. Get out by any means necessary.   
I am so thankful that I have been told the truth, and I realized that even though my Father had kicked me out, and I had been up here, he has been still trying to taint my life with this toxic behavior. I am also now, not afraid to mention anything because I use to tiptoe around the subject but honestly, I am just tired, and I don't want to fight anymore. 

So again, please get help if you feel suicidal, in a bad relationship, or show any signs of wanting to harm yourself. There is help out there. You are not alone, and someone will help you. Sometimes, it's just not in the place we'd expect the help to be. I wish you all a wonderful and peaceful night. 

Saturday, June 23, 2018

★Indy Pop Con 2018: Vendor Stops★

Here are a list of Vendors that I went to!!! I was going to put a description under each of them, but that's going to take a lot of time, and I also don't remember all that I bought from where except for the prints, so please forgive me!!! As promise though, I am adding you on my Vendor Stops list!  Not particular order. Also, vendors, if there is a correction needing to be made, email me and I will fix it!

Off World Designs (Graphic Tees!)

Animestuffstore! (Located in Plainfield IL)

WalkingMelonsAAA (Animation Youtuber/Print Vendor!)

Bittersweethaven (Print and Plus and Clothes Vendor!)

Podcast!!! Podcast design studio!

Hand Painted Nerd (Etsy!)

Jess' Spookie Taylor Art!

Gritty Sugar art!

Icy Panther Shop


Morph's Props

Punch It Graphics


Whitney Kay

Dlierber Writing (Author!)

Nerd Culture Podcast!!!

Lauren Mormino (Vendor!) 

Suta/Justyce/Justyna Babinska (Illustrator/Storyteller)

★Crankgameplays(Ethan)★Interview Indy Pop Con 2018★

Sound Cloud interview with Ethan

Hello my lovelies!!!! I know that it has quite some time, and this is the interview you were waiting on!! Below is my transcript in case you have issues hearing it, and I will tweak my questions but not Ethan's answers. Ethan's answers will be as he answered it.


FM: You began youtube in 2012. Are you hoping to do more with Charity because I've noticed that you've guys have done a whole lot. 

Ethan: Yeah, so I definitely want to do more charity stuff. I've done group charity stuff with a group of friends of mine, and it's been awesome, but I definitely want to do more charity stuff on my own more regularly. I want to try to do at least 3 or 4 charity streams by the end of the year for a bunch of different charities. The most recent one I did was for able gamers, which was super super fun.  I think we raised around $11,000 grand for that in like 5 hours which was really awesome. And so I want to do not only more charity streams but also longer ones like 12 hours and some friends and I might be planning a big 24 hour one, which would be super cool, but yes absolutely I want to do more charity stuff in the future. 

FM: Definitely, will need a lot of energy drinks, but following up from that, do you believe as a gamer on youtuber, you brought out the bad stigma that games have? 

Ethan:Um, I think...I don't think that I've done it personally, but I think that the gaming community on youtube has definitely made it less of a "oh well only a bunch of nerds play games". I don't think there is much of stigma at all with gaming anymore, especially now with the east board community becoming more main stream and like with this year the overwatch league happening. It's a lot more mainstream and something more viable to do as a career right now, which is really cool, and I think that people forget that having a job in games, you could be a game journalist or a game developer, or even like a youtuber in some cases. So the gaming industry as a whole is losing that stigma, it's not as much as a niche thing anymore. It's becoming more mainstream and more widely accepted, and sort of normalized which is cool. There is definitely something with mainstream media people, there is a lot less "You play games" or "You're in gaming wha??" Those kind of answers.  There isn't as many people hating on games anymore. 

FM: Yeah, because it's nice to see a good "something" or good come out of it. And I can tell you inspired a lot of your fans. Especially out there, which is why I always like interviewing people like youtubers like you because you do make a difference. 

Ethan: Thank you

FM: It's the truth. What has been your game so far that you've played? 

Ethan: uhhh, I have no idea, because there are some games that are my favorite games but they are definitely not the best games ever. I really like super smash bros. mele a lot, and basically because I played it a lot as a kid, and that's like a game that my brother and I bonded over a lot when we were growing up. A game that came out in 2017 is "What Remains of Edith Finch". It's probably really high up there. It's a really really cool game. It's definitely sort of a once in a life time experience sort of thing because once you play it the first time, there is just so much that happens that you can only experience once. I can't really talk about it too much, otherwise I will spoil it, but for those who have played that game, there is only certain things that you can experience one time which is super cool. 

FM: I've seen it played, and it's amazing. We'll definitely will leave it at that. If you had fans that wanted to start doing twitch or youtube, the usual question, what would you suggest them to do? 

Ethan: So, the biggest thing is do it because you are passionate about it, and your passionate about creating things or passionate about the community. I think that it's cool seeing youtube or twitch (Sorry guys, interruption here, and Ethan was cool and was waiting for it to pass) ..Alright, with youtube and twitch becoming a mainstream thing. It's a double sword. It's good and bad because a lot of people are seeing a lot of the youtubers and streamers get a lot of success and wealth and fame and stuff and while I guess that's sort of a perk to this kind of thing, it's not why people should start doing it. And also for the most part, people aren't making an insane amount of money or crazy famous or anything like that, so that's pretty rare, but it's sad seeing a lot of people start because they think that's what's going to happen and I wish more people would make videos and streaming because they want to do it. That's my biggest thing, don't start because you wanna get big or get famous or whatever, because it's so hard to grow, especially now with it being so over saturated, it's so hard to grow on youtube, and so if you're starting on that reason of "I wanna get super famous" you're just going to be sad all the time because it's so hard to start on youtube, especially now. 

FM: The constant changing algorithm. 

Ethan: Yeah Exactly. 

FM:And the final question is: Do you want to say any words to your fans here at Indy Pop Con or just in general?

Ethan: Yeah, it's always so crazy to see how many people come out to these events seem me. It's...I don't know it's always really weird even though I'm starting to get more use to it. It's always so crazy like because I see these people on twitter or in the comments, but then meeting them in real life, I can put a face to a username, and I can be like "I know exactly who you are, because you leave comments all the time or tweet me all the time".  and so, there are a lot of people who thank me for dedicating my time to making videos but really I have to thank them for not only watching my videos but also  taking their time to come out to things like this to meet me, and it's really awesome to meet people in person, and it's a lot of fun. 

FM:Yeah, we heard some came here from Norway. And I mean we (my photographer and I) don't beat that, but 3 to 4 hours from Wisconsin. 

Ethan:Yeah, people come a long way. It's nuts. 

FM:And that's basically all the questions!! 

Author/Interviewer Notes: 

And so then I asked for a photo. I don't look my best down here so please...be nice. I also felt like a complete jerk because I didn't realize Brian sat behind us and not at the table with us. As I stated in the video review, I don't like interviewing people if I'm not familiar with that they do simply because I feel like it's not a true interview and I don't want to say something stupid, but I am watching Girbeagly AKA Brian's videos now so please check them out! Both of these guys are really down to Earth and amazing people. I seen first hand the effect they have on their fans, and it makes me want to push these guys forward even more because we need more good in the world.  I also apologize that this took some time to get up! It took more time transcribing than I though it would even though it was 5 questions. Thank you again CrankGameplays( Ethan) and Indy Pop Con for this amazing opportunity.  It was amazing doing something in my hometown such as this. 

Ethan's Youtube: CrankGameplays

Brian's Youtube: Girbeagly